Friday, January 05, 2007
Happy New Year!
I never make resolutions, because when I do I always break them. However, this is the year I will quit smoking forever.
The effort started well. As a nursing mom physicians will not recommend any kind of stop-smoking aid, but research reveals that nicotine gum has yet to be shown to have any side effects more adverse than actually smoking (when used properly, that is). So I got some gum.
It actually works quite well. My problem with quitting smoking is 90% psychological, I think. I can put off a cigarette easily by telling myself I have the gum, I don't need to smoke. The problem is, all my "triggers" have changed since the last time I tried to quit.
This is awful - stepping outside is a trigger. A really big one. And I should have thought of that, because since Kiddo was born I do not smoke in the house or car.
There I am, the first day quitting, doing well, and I get ready to start Hubby's car for him (we're having below zero temps right now, cars like to warm up).... and realise that if I step out side I'm going to smoke or freak out trying not to.
Needless to say I slipped and smoked eventually.
Okay, I think. That's okay, it's hard, let's start again.
Right now I'm trying to, well, out-psych myself. I have got to figure a way around this trigger, a way to start deprogramming it. I'm still working on that. Meanwhile I've cut my smoking in half, and set a new quit date.
Wish me luck!